Getting someone to trust you is hard when you been betrayed countless times. We trust the people close to us like family, other halfs, friends … Whoever. The problem is how do we gain the trust back from someone like that or do we even make ends meet for some? I won’t deny I been hurt too many times by both loved ones and family members. When I say family members it can also mean my nakamas and very close friends. I dunno how to find trust in everyones soul but I know for myself I’m finally learnt to open the doors to the right people. Of course the problem is we have to take risk at times to know if this person is been real or just full of hot air. Those who do know me understand I’m a person who is faithful and will act as a neutral when the time comes for it. That’s always been my way of life and maybe the rule I’ll stand by till I pass away.
So I guess the rollercaster has no chance of slowing down yet. As of late I’m readying myself to be trained to be a escort and while a lot of people are looking at me odd, it’s for the money. I pretty much gave up on looking for love online so giving real life a go again. And why not? What have I got to lose huh. I guess I was always never ready to face the world and say hey i need me a nice lady! But there is a few women that I wanna give it a go with and maybe I been to shy to say anything. Problems are always gonna be there but how we control them is the main thing. So now i’m looking at myself and thinking screw you life, I’m gonna take whats really mine! Sure I’m gonna get hurt but thats the whole point of life and testing the water. I’m ready to say that … I finally feel like a new person and now whatever life throws at me, i’ll take it on. And if I get hurt then they are just my battle scars and not the end of my journey.
The new saga is about to start … Sayonara Deleted Child, thanks for been part of my life