Pain in me (Lyrics)

Cry out till my voice breaks but no one can hear.
Tears roll down my eyes with thoughts of sadness.
This isn’t the end though, I know it can’t be.
I still got something to live for, I just don’t know what.

I been through so much pain and I know I can fight this,
the path my life is set on, i’ll never deny it.
But still I fight alone (alone) alone (alone)
I’m still fighting alone (alone) alone (alone)
Without you by my side

Cry me a river is what you asked of me to do once before
and when I denied you that you kicked me in the mud

I been through so much pain and I know I can fight this,
the path my life is set on, I’ll never deny it.
But still I fight alone (alone) alone (alone) …
I’m still fighting alone (alone) alone (alone) …
Without you by my side.

You said that you would let my soul be free!
Confine in me, talk to me and let us be one!
Instead you left me all on my own …

I’m walking away from the pain now with or without you.
If you follow me is down to you.
But I won’t give up this fight (fight) fight (fight)
I won’t give up this fight (fight) fight (fight) …
Yet your still stick by my side … Side, side side, side …

21/06/13

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Update on me

Past few weeks I not told anyone about what I been doing to myself and I finally took the steps to get help. The reason I did it varies from mainly how much I been going through and not been able to cope with it at all. I’m scared of telling people because I know not everyone will be of support to me but I’m just going to say it. I done self harm to myself. I been really low and I had a lot of reasons for it. I only have myself to blame for losing people. People I love and care about and I’m scared of losing them. In truth I been fighting not to do it for a long time but I finally broke down and did it. I won’t be taking pictures of my cuts or anything like it and I’m already finding it very hard to even come out and say this. Please respect this time for me to fix my wellbeing and focus on getting my health back to normal.

Thanks

In memory of Maria Destiny Ritchie ….

5th of April is in two days time. And while that may be a normal day for everyone else its a day I normally find myself breaking down. See it was this day that I was told I was going to be a Dad. I wish that the coming days would come and go smoothly but it didn’t. Instead I lost my daughter and no amount of pain can and will ever compare to it. It will be ten years on Friday and I don’t know what to do. Smile, cry, rage … I don’t know but one thing I do know is I’ll always miss her.