Tears (Lyrics)

We been together for so long and it’s only right that maybe I should of taken the chance to this, to make you feel like you’re the only girl for me. Let’s go and see the stars tonight and watch them shine while I take this moment to propose to you now.

Girl … Don’t let go …
I wanna wipe your tears that you cry when I’m not there to hold you.
Girl … Don’t let go …
You own my heart and soul and I’ll never wanna leave you alone

(Hook)

Let me take away the pain that’s in you and show you what paradise truly looks like. Me and you sitting back smiling while I hold you in my arms, so tight so warm believe in me.

Baby look into my eyes and let me show you how happy you can be, butterflies dancing in your tummy right now baby believe that I’ll make you smile everyday.

Talking on the phone for so long and I can remember telling you how I just want to hold you tight and how badly I want you here with me right now. Even though we are so far apart right now though, hearing your voice makes me believe that you are right here with me

Girl … Don’t let go …
You don’t what you do to me when I just want to kiss you so badly
Girl … Don’t let go …
You know you mean so much to me and I wanna protect your smile right now.

(Hook)

Let me take away the pain that’s in you and show you what paradise truly looks like. Me and you sitting back smiling while I hold you in my arms, so tight so warm believe in me.

Baby look into my eyes and let me show you how happy you can be, butterflies dancing in your tummy right now baby believe that I’ll make you smile everyday

The day that I last saw you, I kissed you so long on to your lips and couldn’t care what the rest of the world thought of us though. All I could ever wish was that this wasn’t just a dream and that it’s truly you and me girl. I don’t want to moment to leave me again.

Girl … Don’t let go …
I wanna hold on to your hand and make you feel special again.
Girl … Don’t let go …
You know that I was born just to simply love you forever

(Hook)

Let me take away the pain that’s in you and show you what paradise truly looks like. Me and you sitting back smiling while I hold you in my arms, so tight so warm believe in me.
Baby look into my eyes and let me show you how happy you can be, butterflies dancing in your tummy right now baby believe that I’ll make you smile everyday

Bridge
No matter how hard things can get if we got each others then, nothing can stop us. Let takes out place on the center of the stage and go hand and hand as husband and wife

(Hook)

Let me take away the pain that’s in you and show you what paradise truly looks like. Me and you sitting back smiling while I hold you in my arms, so tight so warm believe in me.

Baby look into my eyes and let me show you how happy you can be, butterflies dancing in your tummy right now baby believe that I’ll make you smile everyday

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Pain (Lyrics)

If only I could I take that pain away
If only I could I take that pain away

I can see the unhappiness in your eyes
Even still you try to deny it all to me
I try to hug you and yet you push me away
Can I do anything to take it away?

You know that I …
You know I wanna make you happy

Hook

And if I can I would hold you tight
I wipe away your tears you cry at night
Just let me try and help you
Don’t shut me out

You wanna close it all up inside you
Curl into a ball and hide away
Thinking that it’s the best way to be
But you know it’s killing deep down
Hurts so much seeing you like this …

Come to me …
Let me help you out

(Hook)

And if I can I would hold you tight
I wipe away your tears you cry at night
Just let me try and help you
Don’t shut me out

Don’t be shy girl don’t take it all on
Let me ease the pain in you now
Don’t push me away. take my hand girl
I can’t let you do this alone

Hook (x2)

And if I can I would hold you tight
I wipe away your tears you cry at night
Just let me try and help you
Don’t shut me out

And if I can I would hold you tight
I wipe away your tears you cry at night
Just let me try and help you
Don’t shut me out

And if I can I would hold you tight
And if I can I would hold you tight
And if I can I would hold you tight
And if I can …

24/12/13

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Hide (Lyrics)

Somewhere hiding in your soul, you can hear a child’s cry.
Somehow you blocked it all out and forgot who you are.
But no matter what you thought you are …
You are not all alone.

Escape from it, don’t hide away your pain, take my hand and let me help. Don’t let your past ruin who you truly are. Believe in yourself. Let me wipe away your tears that you cry so many nights all alone. I’ll carry your burden till the end of time.

(Crying in fear … Crying in fear)

The place where we look back on is calling out your name.
The person who hurt you the most wants you to follow him.
But even still though, they are just echoes in the wind.

No matter what they say, no matter what happens, don’t go back to the place you called hell. You know that you are much stronger than you was before. Just believe in me. I’ll protect you now don’t be ashamed to cry, I’m here to make you smile again. The moment of truth for you to shine is almost here.

(Crying in fear) (Crying in fear)
Don’t run away … Don’t run away … Don’t run away … Don’t run away …

Don’t look back in fear, don’t hide away from home just hold my hand and show you peace. I’m not going to leave you in a place with no love. Believe in us. I’ll wipe your tears away, I’ll make you feel good again. No longer will you feel like you’re alone.

21/12/13

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Almost over

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Well only a day and a bit left until the end of another year. But so much has happened this year that it’s taken a bit out of me. Two meltdowns in one year is not something to brag about at all but, hearing people wanting me to write a book is. As much as I wish I could say this has been a better year it’s not really. I can only hope and pray that the Rebuild year will do more good for me. Why do I label it the Rebuild year? Well because for a start I’ll be getting help on a weekly basic so that there is one thing positive. Also I’m looking to help others out so they too can get to a better time in life. Everything starts off small and then starts to build bigger and better. I guess life will be more busy for me now and I’ll finally be happy in myself. I’m not pushing for anything too high or too low but a goal I can reach. As of now this is my plan for next year :

1. Get a new job that I’ll be feeling happy in.
2. Try and complete the book by December 13th.
3. Have the new designs I got planned finished.
4. Start driving lessons.
5. Plan for a holiday aboard.

Five things so far but then again that list can always change. Still for not I’m hoping it can all be done. The second one will be a bit of a bitch but I reckon it can be done. I really do need to advance things and make ends meet. Keep watching world … The year of the Rebuild saga is about to begin!

Forever with you (6 years on)

Already the day feels heavy but even still I got something to do. This year I’m giving him something fruity. Apple sours. Taste pretty nice but after a while can get sickly. Either way it’s a toast to the big man. I can’t believe it’s being six years since you left us. I’m still a lost cause and only now getting help. I wonder what you say about me? I know I not turned out the grandchild you wanted. I should of have a child by now. Well a second one and have someone with me to see you. Sigh. Old man, who am I supposed to look towards for guidance? Naze … Naze does my heart bleed and not stop?! What is the point of me fighting for a future that has so much pain?!

That feeling just now. Of a really cold breeze … Is that of your doing? I’ll take this opportunity to remember our times. I’m crying again with that baka look on my face again. image

I’ll pour your drink and leave you these flowers in your memory.  Thank you for everything you done for me.

Your grandchild

Anton

Offensive

So okay let me just say Xmas day was a really good day and was a better Xmas than normal. No arguments this year and no one raised their voice over any BS. Also I got to finish another chapter in the book and I’m now working on a 1.3 version. Of course I still waiting on the book to get proof read but that will come in time. So far I done 47 pages which is pretty good for me and I’m feeling good about it all! I got rid of my facebook account due to the amount of BS going on there and the fact that some how I get involved when I don’t want to. But yesterday saw something I wasn’t expecting. Some one got upset for me saying Happy Holidays to them instead of Merry Xmas. I don’t quite understand how that could be offensive in any way but hey somehow it was. As you know I do celebrate Xmas so I thought me saying Happy Holidays would make people happy. Not to some though. Does it bother me? No not at all. I guess because of how some other people’s religion is not recognized for their Xmas it gets to the point where we don’t hear Happy holidays. September 19th is our holiday in case you didn’t know and it’s called Talk like a pirate day. This has been classed as the Pastafarian’s Xmas for quite some time now and to be honest I love it! Well anyway world I hope you all had a great Xmas and we will soon be heading into 2014, 2014 … The year of Rebuild … I like that! Picture of Santa Hanabi

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Night before Xmas

 

Of late I been fighting a way to stay busy and not fall back down into deep depression. I’ll admit I wrote a few new songs during this period and now understand a few more things. Such as … Well … Let’s just say I’m learning more about me than I have done before. It’s pretty neat how people find themselves or even go on these far away trips to do the whole soul searching thing. As for me doing that … Well with a very limited budget I can exactly go off to say Singapore and do that. Although it would be nice to go back to there or even a new place in total. End of the day I’m taking each day as I can and what ever comes will come. But I gotta be honest world I still wish that Kat did say to me she was having my baby. But then would that change who we are right now or make things worst? I hardly talk to her and I feel guilty because now the person who helped her out has stopped talking to her. She is pissed off with me about it and I have try to make amends but I guess I didn’t do my best. Like I said I feel guilty because of it and she has every right to be mad at me for it. Even now though … I’m still thinking what if she said to me she was pregnant with my child. Guess it no longer matters and I should just carry on moving forward from here on out. God show me a sign or something again please to make things right again …