Already the day feels heavy but even still I got something to do. This year I’m giving him something fruity. Apple sours. Taste pretty nice but after a while can get sickly. Either way it’s a toast to the big man. I can’t believe it’s being six years since you left us. I’m still a lost cause and only now getting help. I wonder what you say about me? I know I not turned out the grandchild you wanted. I should of have a child by now. Well a second one and have someone with me to see you. Sigh. Old man, who am I supposed to look towards for guidance? Naze … Naze does my heart bleed and not stop?! What is the point of me fighting for a future that has so much pain?!
I’ll pour your drink and leave you these flowers in your memory. Thank you for everything you done for me.